hippo tales

June 30, 2006

►re-charged!

yay~! the old bren is back...feeling recharged..k, the thunderstorm is over...although i know another storm will somehow come soon, i'll try to make full use of my time from now! =)

from now, i'll smile at my problems!

Yay!

/1:24 AM

June 29, 2006

►enlightened..

haha heard of the rich get richer, the poor get poorer?...now i understand..and i've come up with 'the sad gets sadder, the happy gets happier!' haha indeed its true...was sad, but when i look back at happy things, i realised i'm not such an unhappy person after all...but then again, like what genie says, u cannot always live in ur past..SO from now, its time to be happy..=p

in the past....

JB seafood dinner was great...

Marrybrown was great!

shopping was great!

and so on...

and now...

friends ARE always beside to make me smile...

family is always there to stand by me...

mentor always around to guide me along...

see! now i am happier with a bigger smile! =p

/3:13 AM

►messed-up

bren..u've messed up ur life...why?...becuase u are soft. its time to stand up for urself. speak for yourself...stop trying to please everyone...in the end, u piss everyone off instead. =) ya, so STAND up and be strong.

its time to get out of the mess and start again! anyway, thanks genie...=)

/3:01 AM

June 25, 2006

►what is dunno?

hmm, do you know what is the three most commonly used words??... "I don'T know"

so..what does "dunno" exactly mean?
firstly, it means that 'yes, i really dunno....'

on the other hand, think of it again,when u say dunno, do u really mean that u don't know?..or are u just trying to get away from the question..? i'm using the word 'dunno' rather often these days... implications?....
a. i really dunno
b. i dun want to talk about it
c. i dun want to tell u about it
d. wadever

haha...sounds stupid...but people think of it again...when u use the word 'dunno'..are u running away?...r u really unaware?..or r u just trying to be ignorant?

/3:22 AM

June 21, 2006

►airly-FAINT...<--energy fading

hmm,i'm running out of energy...i guess he was right...right that things arent going the way i wanted them to, right that i've lost my confidence, right that i'm just simply sad..

as much as i was sad, i gotta control...does it make it better by complaining how down on my luck i have been for the past few months?...does it make it better by being sad everyday?..does it make it better by crying?..the world dont stop turning, the time dun stop slipping.. so tell me, do i have a choice...to choose to be sad?

i wouldnt want to be sad...who wants to?...but who arent ever sad b4? what right do i have to complain about my life?..i tot i was the luckier ppl already...and if u (whoever u r reading this now), think that u're unlucky enough, think of the ones worse off than u...

well, good things come to me too...dun they go to u as well?..i've got a bunch of funky odacers who never fail to make my day...isnt it a blessing? i've got great parents who've accepted the impt guy in my life..isnt it a happy thing as well? i've got a genie who promised to grant me wishes...and also, i've got someone who loves me for who i m....so

i see no reason why i should be whining about my life...u too? =) energy fading, but i'll recharge..=)

/2:15 AM

June 19, 2006

►be cautious

" be careful...dun fall..."

/10:38 PM

June 17, 2006

►i am just confused..

bren is confused over values and beliefs...

i learnt, to perservere and hang on in there when things are getting tough...thats why i tried. but i failed. but then again, i learnt to pick myself up again after failing to try again, thats why i tried.
but i failed again. But i learnt to try failures after failures...i haven succeed tho...

BUt he always tell me not to take the easy way out....so when i was unhappy at work, i tot i should continue to make myself stronger through these difficulties...but when i did make that decision, he felt that i should just quit. so...someone please tell me...

i'm confused.. when should i perservere when should i quit?....

u know, when u have two sides to perservere..its hard. both are not giving me a good time. both needs much commitment..both are mentally and time demanding...so...please tell me, should i take an easy way out for one??

/2:04 AM

June 12, 2006

►freedom of choice?

argh. there's no right to choose. sometimes i just feel like i'm trapped.

/6:24 PM

June 10, 2006

►where were the days?...

oh well, yest was a great day put with the odac peeps! they're just the best companions!! they never fail to brighten up my day....

Well, our first destination was magic cafe!! (mr lam's intro!) was a very nice and peaceful place where we had the whole 2nd level to ourselves!...cool!...the coffee machine is amazing...very cool...if u like coffee, u should check it out! its at bugis area...well,and..yep, we joked and had fun...

And then...we went for supper! we wanted to have roti prata! but too bad, no more roti prata, left only murtabak..so we had murtabak...NICE! and best thing of all...we had another room all to ourselves again! (because another area no more seats!!) haha felt like VIPS for the whole night....

well well...i miss the odac days...

when we'll just play around...

act cute...

have crazy tea party...

and do camps together!..

And of cuz...

not forgetting being loved by my chocolate lover...

I'm so glad to be part of this wonderful movie...Saints Odac 04/05..

/11:43 PM

June 8, 2006

►its so me...

haha, i used to think that i'm a independent little girl.. since primary 3, i had to go home on my own, settle my own lunch and my homework all by myself. very independent, and all my aunties will praise me for that...

and as i grow older...yep, i grew more independent...in the sense, i know how to take care of myself even if my parents arent with me wherever i go...but slowly...i realised one thing...

its not that i've grown independent. its just a shift of reliance from my parents to people close to me..to my parents, i may be a big girl..but to myself, to ppl who really knows me, i'm still a little baby...i'm still the little girl who needs the attention, the love and care..

gosh...i hate to grow up..

/1:06 AM

June 7, 2006

►all about you...

歌曲：都是你
歌手：光良

谁改变了我的世界
没有方向没有日夜
我看着天这一刻在想你
是否会对我一样思念

你曾说我们有一个梦
等到那天我们来实现
我望着天在心中默默念
下一秒你出现在眼前

想念的心装满的都是你
我的钢琴弹奏的都是你
我的日记写满的都是你的名
才发现又另一个黎明

你曾说我们有一个梦
等到那天我们来实现
我望着天在心中默默念
下一秒你出现在眼前

想念的心装满的都是你
我的钢琴弹奏的都是你
我的日记写满的都是你的名
才发现又另一个黎明

我的日记写满的都是你的名
才发现又另一个黎明
这是我对你爱的累积

/1:11 AM

June 5, 2006

►Goodbyes...

oh well, yesterday was graduation day for my dearest S4L629...it was an amazing class....as much as i hate it, i had to skip their graduation...HOW SAD CAN!!! well, but then again, i feel so happy for all of them...they've certainly grown...=)

S4L629...an amazing class. Like any other class, they started off as strangers...
I still remember the First day of class...When i said HELLO...it would be silence...no smiles..or perhaps a little soft and shy reply..? I was actually a stand-in Trainer-aide for just the first half day of the class...I thought, well...its just another class...so when i left on the first day, i felt nothing..

BUT Somehow...! i managed to get back to be a trainer-aide for this class again! and amazingly i was told to stay throughout the whole course. I was glad...and i committed. every week...every sundays....9.30am at toa payoh...without fail...Many would feel that its a chore to wake up so early on a sunday, but not all all for me...! Certainly not for the students too...

I felt the joy among the students as they went through the course every single week..lunch were always exciting for them...Pasta mania, dim sum, pizza hut....their friendships grew stonger...sisterhood and brotherhood grew deeper...they never fail to encourage one another, never fail to bring each other up when they're down..never fail to crack a joke when there is awkward silence...and never fail to care more for one another...

till yesterday....the feeling against leaving them was so strong....I hated to leave...i saw them through the many weeks...and before i left, a few of them represented the class to give me a short special thank you speech..the speeches certainly touched my heart...i was glad...that i havent been a bad trainer aide afterall! i was so happy cuz i felt that i've given this class my best...and that i've crossed their paths..=) Chinmaya, the amazing trainer...made S4L629...an amazing class....COOL!

" =) difficulties should act as tonic...they spur us to greater exertion...no matter what happen...dun ever give up! Each obstacle make us stronger...thats how one grows...jia you"

/9:55 PM

June 3, 2006

►Reflecting...

hmmm, sometimes, i feel doubtful of myself...
exactly what kind of person am i?...
i really dunno..and i really need to know...

dear friends...what kind of friend have i been?...hmmm, i feel really lousy towards some of u...but for the rest that i considered to be my good friends?..my so-called better friends?

dear mum and dad, what kind of daughter have i been?...have i been rebellious and naughty that u cant tolerate?...am i really that young and insensible to u?...am i really that not capable??...

dear 'mentors'...what kind of 'tu di' have i been?..have i really been doing a good job?..or are they just words to encourage me?...am i a friend to u?..or am i just another that u are guiding?...

dear kj...what have i been to u all the while?..am i that not thoughtful towards u?...am i that wilful to u?...

dear brenda, what exactly are u...? are u that incapable? are u that lousy?...are u that unable to focus and concentrate?...

wake up ur ideas.

/1:36 AM

June 1, 2006

►win-win, win-lose, lose-lose

hmm, so many times in life, we are caught in lose-lose situations...how discouraging...no matter u say yes, or u say no, the outcome will be unfair to u...hai..y like that?. perhaps its true...or rather, its sooo true. hao ren mei hao bao...whats the world coming to!!?

SO fast...6 weeks is coming to an end....my fight....is coming to an end too. tough fight?...i wont say so...not hard enough.but i would say, i've grown...at least. to understand more clearly of what it is that i want in life....i learnt by the hard way, banging left right before things appear clear to me. many ppl have experiences of giving up halfway through...for me, i cant remember any clear incidents of giving up halfway...but i'm sure i've got some...and i wouldnt want to add anymore to the numbers.... left 3 days. not much time to do anything...but i'm sure 3 days can make a difference....no matter how small..

its till u try that u'll do it.
its till u fail that u'll learn.
its till u fight that u'll grow.
its till u perservere that u'll succeed.

JUST DO IT...

/4:05 PM

Tioman