hippo tales

January 28, 2007

►important?...

well, is it that important?...i've been asking myself...i have always thought that the recognition part was not important...but is it really that case?..when u really put in so much time and effort and things arent the way they appear to be, is the motivation still therE for you to carry on???

hmm, not really. but i will carry on...one day, what i want will come true...=)

bren, jia you.

/1:45 AM

January 26, 2007

►minds cafe again....

haha,went mindscafe on monday again....was damn fun!! =)

KTV after minds....Super fun!!! haha whole night of fun...if only everyday also can like that...=p

/12:42 AM

January 21, 2007

►minds cafe..

today was a loong day. had work from 9am-7pm...
work was fun...the kids were good today. lesser of trouble, more of cuteness...if only every week they are like such angels!!

after work, had dinner with dear ziwan...caught up a bit with her... realised actually i have 'lost touched' with her to a great extent. but i guess today's sit-down-and-talk session was nice. i learnt a lot more things about what was going on...=)

and after that, i went to meet up with my uni classmates...to minds cafe! i had a lot of fun...i would say...=) thanks people..and most importantly, i wanna say thanks to this friend...

'u might be reading this, u may not. but i really wanna thank you so much because, i felt comfortable talking to you...i feel a little less left out when u're around and you bother about y i'm feeling sad or troubled and stuffs. and most importantly of all, u bother to talk to me. perhaps u treat everyone like that..but still, u deserve this 'thanks'...' =)

/3:20 AM

January 19, 2007

►does life really give you what u want?

i always myself this question..."there are SO many cars out there on the road...but why is it that none belongs to me?..."

why is it that people around me all seem to have a car in the family?..y does my parents not have it?..but as i ask this question, i'm not blaming my parents for not being able to afford a car. i'm blaming myself ..y cant i afford to give my parents a car?...is it so hard to give them a good life?...

i want to give my parents a good life.

today, my friend's dad gave us a lift. Toyota CAMRY. i love that car. cuz its big enough for me to drive my parents around. and today i got a chance to sit in that car, but it doesnt belong to me. sad ah? i chatted with uncle...he told me it costs, $80k - $90k...and guess what, uncle has retired...and then i ask myself again, y hasnt my daddy retire?..he's still working and worrying that once he stops working, how?...

i'm sure my dad has worked very hard. in fact, maybe harder than many people. but did life really give him what he asked for?..

/6:44 PM

►whats this feeling once again?..

feeling...weird. isit the sad song playing on my laptop thats making me..sad?.. or isit because...its just a sudden feeling?..i...dunno.

school started for 2 weeks already. but am still so haunted by the fact that i'm back to uni life again. i see it as traumatising. cuz of the tutorials and assignments, projects and....tough competition. i'm sick of wanting to score well, that explains my lousy grade for sem 1? ...i guess so. no more fighting spirit for studying....and thats so dead for me..

i miss the life that i had during holidays where i feel so free and easy and full of meaning. hmmm.

been anti-socialist these days. simply dun like to talk...again. well. or rather, i have forgotten what is it that i can talk to people about?..i always find myself weird. sometimes i blend in well, sometimes, i pull myself away from people. do i have a split personality?...

am i the only one feeling this way?..or many people feel so too?..feeling lonely at times when u feel that 'i feel like talking to someone, but who can i call?..' 'ya, so what if i call them, what am i going to say?' 'do they really have the time to bother about me?' or sometimes feeling sad that u feel that nobody really care about you?..that nobody really bothers about you.?

/6:12 PM

January 18, 2007

►thank you...

Dearest shuyi, colleen and yloon....

if u are reading this, which i dun think you are....

Thank you so much. the 3 words u all gave me filled my heart.

/11:24 PM

►intentions...

does the society really have to comment?

i guess i was so tensed up over things like that today...sometimes i just feel that who are we to comment, who are they to comment and who are you and i to comment?..have their feelings ever be considered?...

people do different things...they say different things..they have different perspective..but i believe one does things for a reason...do u?

can you understand?

/11:02 PM

►power 5

this was new year eve's night..

-the Amazing JAF-

-the 3 little Act-Cuties-

-the Pretty Ladies!

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-the Handsome boys..haha-

the POWER 5!!

/4:33 PM

January 12, 2007

►used to be holidays....now school...

gosh...my internet is super...irritating!!! i cant get online as and when i like now. what kind of wireless broadband is this!!!!?

but anyway, been long since i last jot down my thoughts. well i guess, holidays is better than school..i'm getting bored of school...=( gosh and its like only the 3rd day of school, and i had attended only 2 lessons. i've got like 2.5 years to go...someone save me please.. but well, its ok. i will hang on.

holidays was fulfilling. a great one. had a lot of fun and a lot of breakthroughs. did stuffs that i din use to do, or din dare to do...
christmas at ktv. new year eve at chalet. last week of holidays in genting.
new year eve was great. had a great deal of fun with so many people counting down with you. not strangers but 'brothers and sisters'...a new year, a new goal....higher expectations of myself in the year to come. the best thing was, i felt that we are a team that night. I was proud of ourselves, cuz i felt the synergy. the 5 of us. =)

GREAT. enough of whining. and time to get back to reality. SMILES

things will be going great! =)

/8:43 PM

Tioman