January 19, 2007

►whats this feeling once again?..

feeling...weird. isit the sad song playing on my laptop thats making me..sad?.. or isit because...its just a sudden feeling?..i...dunno.

school started for 2 weeks already. but am still so haunted by the fact that i'm back to uni life again. i see it as traumatising. cuz of the tutorials and assignments, projects and....tough competition. i'm sick of wanting to score well, that explains my lousy grade for sem 1? ...i guess so. no more fighting spirit for studying....and thats so dead for me..

i miss the life that i had during holidays where i feel so free and easy and full of meaning. hmmm.

been anti-socialist these days. simply dun like to talk...again. well. or rather, i have forgotten what is it that i can talk to people about?..i always find myself weird. sometimes i blend in well, sometimes, i pull myself away from people. do i have a split personality?...

am i the only one feeling this way?..or many people feel so too?..feeling lonely at times when u feel that 'i feel like talking to someone, but who can i call?..' 'ya, so what if i call them, what am i going to say?' 'do they really have the time to bother about me?' or sometimes feeling sad that u feel that nobody really care about you?..that nobody really bothers about you.?