i remembered...when i first joined the company..zen said that i was a 'caterpillar'...
i guess thats the reason why he din get to me..probably he felt that i would show my 'defense character' when someone is near...
he's right to a certain extent...and..well. thats probably the reason why i never got to him too.
its gonna be a new chapter in life.
let me recall a story...to see if there is any to describe what i'm feeling...hmm...shits i cant think of any. but...it just feel like...someone that used to be so important in your life and used to be so important in that person's life..disappeared for such a long time..and suddenly, there were such great changes, and suddenly, that someone is coming back...
we used to share the same things..we used to do the same things. now we're different. i recalled how vulnerable i was...how unconfident i was...i emerged from that shell. i dun wanna go back in all again...please dun give me that sentence. to be all trapped in it all again...if anyone does, i'll really hate him...
but i learnt to let things go..some things are meant to be. i need the confidence. i will have it. will i?...
its time i show my power...=p
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