shifu said before, whatever you do, it must come from the heart...
just felt that i had lost the drive i used to have back then when i was a lingdao..i still remember the excitement that i had when i first got into the club. i prepared all my speeches before hand, made sure they are different from the rest and made sure my team was the loudest and the best.
yesterday, things just felt soooo different. i felt that i'm a piece of jigsaw puzzle that seemed to be part of the jigsaw, but when tried to put it in, it just happened to be not the correct place. it was a loong break away for exams and from there, i lost touch of everything. my heart wasnt there anymore. it wasnt a place for me to stay, not a place for me to talk, not a place for me to shine.
a part of me want to stay, but a greater part of me is pulling me away. someone told me to get with it, i tried. but, wouldnt that be meaningless? i'm tired of the competition...and most imptly, i have no confidence of winning. what does it mean?...i lost half the battle already...
someone told me also, i believe one man can make the difference, and i told him, 'yeah, i believe i am the man...' is that what i am supposed to believe in?
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