►ego problem...
yea. i seriously have an EGO problem. damn. haha. just hate the feeling of feeling lousy...but many times, realised that i'm giving myself the feeling that i'm lousy..its a feeling i give myself. not something that i really am. well, maybe i really am, but at least to some ppl, i'm not...
yeah. egoistic. i really am. trying to put it down recently. i tot i just gotta keep telling myself that i'm really doing ok and i'm really good. it helps sometimes, but i think results work a faster way up there than just having the feeling...feelings can be wrong. results are those that show.
hmmm, really really hope that i can reach a stage of giving without expecting. ppl dun appreciate, nvm...ppl dun care, nvm...ppl dunno, nvm...ppl dun understand, nvm. i just gotta do what i promise myself that i would. not easy la. i have an ego too. and mine is stong. i'm fighting for my ego. but at the same time, i am putting down my ego. damn it. hahaha confused.
alone. again.
i'm damn hungry. yes. and sleepy. and tired.
i find myself really weird sometimes. the more jiji ppl are, the more xiao ji i am. the more xiao ji ppl are, the more jiji i am...weird. i'm weird...argh.
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