►yay.
yay. i survived 4 days of school already. left one more day to go and its chinese new year. JIA YOU.
hmm, been deprived of good sleep lately. dun even dare to go to sleep without having done my work. and deprivation from sleep is making me a temperamental person, not in school, but the moment i reach home. fatiugue makes me really emo. like i get upset, angry and pissed really easily. i was kinda pissed when my mum called and ask me to do a few things. i was resting, and i was like 'argh' in my head. but i wondered why was i even going to be pissed? and i told myself, 'nono, u're letting fatigue getting over you' and somehow, the 'anger' went away. and when he called and when things dun seem to go the way i like, i felt frustrated. i dun even know what was i frustrated about. and i told myself, 'nono' once again. and i fell asleep. haha. its a lot of sub-consciously reminders to myself lately. somehow, cheating urself over and over again about certain stuffs can really make it seem as if its real. somehow i kind of successfully convinced myself that i'm enjoying school. ahaha, perhaps its the sense of satisfaction that i'm getting from using every single bit of time to study and do what i can...
i met julia and lijing today! and somehow we were talking about studying hard. they asked me to study hard, but not too hard. and i asked why? then they say cuz last sem already, go out to work cannot play le. hahah..and my immediate response was..'NO.....' cuz 1) i wasnt going to be an accountant like them 2)this sem is super impt to me...and julia read my mind. this is what she said. ' she different la. she played 2.5 years le, so last 0.5 years must study hard!!!'
i had a good laugh and left for my lesson.=)
/6:50 PM
